*Takes a deep breath.*



Forgive me if I get off track or rant-y... But I feel that there's something that should be said. And I'm going to damn well say it RIGHT NOW:

I AM LEAVING.

I've been debating this for a while now, and I've finally decided to leave this site for a while, if not for good. I have my own personal reasons (one in the form of a stupid bitch I prefer not to name), as well as some more open-to-talk-about ones. XD;;

One reason is the fact that I dislike most things associated with fandoms. >_> Call me a hypocrite (it's not the first time and it sure as fuck won't be the last), call me conceited (because I am), or whatever you will have, but this is a personal opinion.
Most mainstream fandoms are the worst.
I've met many a douchebag because of fandoms, and that's the reason that I hate them.

Not to mention that I think that fanfiction isn't even close to being equal to original works of fiction. But we won't get into that, because I'll just piss people off... again.
Not that I really give a shit, to be honest...
I just don't want to get into this again.

Original fiction > fanfiction EVERY DAY OF THE WEEK.

There.

Obviously, I've done my share of fanfics and fanarts. I'm very proud of the ones I've done, too. Naturally, I love my work.
But this isn't what this horribly long journal was about (you still with me?).


Okay, so... we've established that I'm leaving dA (you guys won't miss me, anyway :3) and that I hate fanworks because it doesn't take a creative bone to produce them. (There is a whole shitload more to my argument, but it's not something I wish to share with you, so don't ask.)

But let me tell you a little story about a gal in junior high...

Her biggest dream was to share the art that she loved with the entire world. Through the internet. She wanted to bring joy to the eyes that would settle on the works she was so proud to have created.

Needless to say, that girl was me about five years ago (has it been that long?).

I wanted so much to share my art with everyone who would see it.

And I did.

The winter of 2006, I started posting my drawings (of my own characters) online here at deviantART. My biggest dream had come true!

But that dream slowly faded.

deviantART has (almost?) ruined my relationship. Whether she wants to admit it or not, it has. And, this time, it wasn't my fault. I've been trying. But I've never been good enough, so why should I think that something would change now?

Anyway...

I think that's it. Everything I wanted to say to you guys before I take my leave.

I'll keep checking back, because I have made some friends on here. :3 Not everything has been horrible. <3




Well, that's it.

I'll see you guys around.


x




031808~




EDIT:

I forgot to go into a whole new rant about how anime has gotten to be like religion for me. And if any of you know how I feel about religion...

If not, here goes: I hate organized religion. I'd much rather be spiritual and have a connection with whatever-higher-being-there-is ON MY OWN.

So that's how I feel about anime now. I fucking hate being around anyone who reads manga anymore. I don't want to be around anyone who watches anime. Or listens to Jrock.

BUT. If I RP any sort of fandom with you, just know that I love you very much and am willing to put everything aside for you, because I want to stay close to you (Pookie-pants, hehe~ <3).

So. Yes. I'm done.

Goodbye.